It would
have one of those cheesy MOM in a heart tattoo images and the word Super Ashley written in fancy, schmany
cursive. I would wear it with my brown,
4 ½” heeled Steve Madden ankle boots and a mini dress. Or maybe with my
brand new, size 0 jeans and a backless top. Either way, I’d feel hawt.
When I
found out I was pregnant, I foresaw running shoes and high-waisted tapered
jeans. It was pretty bleak, in my opinion. It was exasperated by the extra
thirty pounds that settled between my upper thighs and collar bone, squishy
arms and roll-y tummy post-baby. I’d given up the idea of being more than wife
and Mom, and while it was a hard pill for me to swallow, I did it and I made
the most of it. I had a beautiful son, a wonderful family and my husband was
going to provide for us. From an outsider’s perspective, I was living in my
perfect little world.
Imagine my
shock when my world shattered.
I worked my
ass off, quite literally, and shed over forty pounds of emotional and physical
weight. I bought high heels, dyed my hair, put on some mascara and hit the
town. I decided to go back to school. After spending three years focusing on
being a parent, almost five years spent focusing on my relationship it was time
for me to have my time and so far
it’s been the time of my life.It hasn’t been easy, but then no one ever said it would be. They just promised it would be worth it, and even in the moments when I felt that I couldn’t take another step, pressing on led me to beautiful places. I’ve found love. I love myself. I’ve never felt that way before. How could I have ever expected to have a successful relationship when I didn’t even love myself?
I’ve found
friendship. I’ve found my passion, my creativity and strengths I didn’t know I
had.
It’s
amazing what you find when you take the time to look.
Awsome..
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